Seize The Day
Everywhere I turn I see someone or another with a death wish…quite prevalent now, especially with people coming to work with me. Few consciously understand that they have a death wish. If called to do so, I will bring the death wish to the individual’s attention. Invariably, s/he will—egoically speaking—deny it, but deep down, right in their heart, in their knowing, they will resonate to the truth of the situation. Commonly, these death wishes are from people who are just too afraid-- thus resistant-- to go beyond their own limitation and stand up and live from their own greatness when that is exactly what these changing times are calling all of us to do.
A woman came to a class I was giving a few weeks ago. Her energy was like a ship’s anchor. I had worked with this woman off and on for some years. On break, I approached her about her death wish. In this case, the woman consciously understood that she had a death wish. I asked her if she knew how she was going to exit the physical. “A car accident,” she sputtered quickly. (When questioned at a deeper level, invariably the person “knows” his exit strategy, sometimes coming up with a backup plan or even two.) She knew what she was up against—her need to caretake. It was killing her, but caretaking was a way of life for her. She identified with life through sacrificing herself to others to get a sense of self. Egoically speaking, she would rather die than give up her way of relating to life. On the other hand, her way of relating to life was literally killing her. The battle was on. Who would win? Ego? Or Spirit? I told her it was ok to go if she really needed to do so…that there was no right or wrong either way. If life was just too much for her, if making that final step in letting go of caretaking—which she recognized as enabling others—was too much, she didn’t have to do it. It was clear that she needed permission to go. It was also clear that with knowing that it was ok to go—no failure/no judgment—that there was space being made for her to make the choice to stay.
At the end of the class, I asked each in attendance to articulate what they had brought of themselves. This woman said that she brought nothing. Then just as suddenly, coming to life, she interrupted me as I continued on, saying that she did bring something. She drew a song sheet from a bag at her feet and began to sing. All in attendance were pulled into her “heart music”. The song was “Seize the Day.” The song and the message hung in the air long after she finished singing.
Recently I heard from this woman. She wrote, “I continue to look at the ways that I enable others. This is very entrenched in me. I continue to let go of that. My job change is good. I work with people who are helping me grow. It is a beautiful thing to see how my sons and daughter (adult offspring) can grow when I get out of the way. I could not have imagined it. I could not have created it myself. Every day I see over and over how my “love” cripples them. I am amazed at how much of my life has been spent avoiding life. I have directed so much of my energy into re-enacting history. I continue to see the blessings that come to all when I recognize and live in the moment. Thanks for participating in my journey. Thanks for sharing yourself. Thanks for the guidance.”
It’s obvious that this woman, a very powerful being, has a preponderance of gifts to bring to the world. And as she continues to heal herself and aright her own life, her death wish dissolves and those gifts come forth of their own accord…as with all of us.
I ask, “Do you have a death wish? Are you in resistance to giving up limitation and stepping fully into life? To live responsibly and fully from your heart?” If we are going to effectively align ourselves with these winds of change upon us, we must choose life…choose consciousness. The time is now. Intuition is the way.
Hmmm...the death wish. Well, my body wants out for sure but I in no way am jippin' myself out of the treasure inside. I am not going to sell myself short of getting to ME...even if it kills me. How ironic is that?
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I love it...I too say I am no way jippin' myself out of the treasure inside!!!!!!
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Being a little nervous about posting a comment, I was thinking, well, someone may really need to see through me. See me to my core.
So, yet another comment about a death wish...knowing what it takes to go the distance when you are already in the death zone, you sure as hell won't turn back. You know you have guts at that point, strength, and a bit of insanity...and no one can take that away, so you might as well let 'er rip.
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Dale,
I love your comment about death wish! That is so it! No turning back, might as well go for it! Not going through all of this to be taken out early. Seeing what you are made of definitely makes me want to dig my heels in and get to the bottom of me.
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The story you posted on Intuology "Seize the Day" helped me get in touch with my death wish at a deeper level. Thank you. Stopping making everything o.k. for everyone but me. Enabling is deadly. I am drained beyond my limits and it is either stop or die. So I'm stopping.
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Im using my seat belts again!
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Good for you for seeing it. You would not have posted that remark if you did not want to stop using the seat belts. So what is the first step?
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This topic, of course, is perfectly timed. All is in perfect order and Divine. I had such difficulty even reading this when it was originally sent, primarily because I am one of "those" who disbelieved and was shocked by the supposition of having a death wish. I thought, "ME? Of all people? I LOVE life. I LOVE things around me. I am GRATEFUL and thank God for my life, for the beauty around me, for the wonderful people in my life and for the opportunities presented." But, as I dug deeper (not so deep, really), my heart sank and was heavy with relief that I was finally acknowledging this about my "self". I am still working through this. I still "do" too much and not enough just "being". This was a great reminder for me to take a deep breath, slow down, and continue on my journey with the Light. I thank Ia and team for starting this blog to keep these messages fresh and in front of us all. Love and Light to all! xxoo
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The payoffs for being real are powerful encouragements to continue on the journey. I have been thinking a lot about these writings and how they apply to me. I realize -not with my head, but with my being- that the big, big lie is that we are alone. We alone have this struggle. We alone suffer in this way. We alone....... It is in the sharing of this big, big lie -we alone...we are alone- that the isolation is broken and one sees with clarity. Acknowledging truth always leads to joy. The truth is, we are never alone.
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Expression of deep understanding here. Yes, the truth is we are never alone. This is a topic on my list to write about.
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: I choose life, I see the lack of breath was directly related to the lack of life. I was not fully choosing life. So the body was reflecting that. I can breathe again, I am living again. Thank god!
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I see how my surroundings are always a reflection of how full of life I am. If my surroundings are a mess and nothing is cleaned and put in its place, I am pulling out of life, not present. When my surroundings are a reflection of life and energy then so am I. Heart opening, YES!
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Perfect timing on the Intuology Now Update. I really had to ask myself, "do I have a death wish". At first I thoguht no way but in this moment, it is yes and as I realized this, I felt this tingling, warm sensation in my heart chakra and something is clearing. I have been using sugar like crazy lately. I wasn't quite sure what that was all about until now. History got kicked up and I got sucked in and then I lost myself. My body wants out, it is not sure how NOT to take on burdens of others, although, it is definitely making progress with it. I don't know where I fit anymore, nothing feels good anymore, but of course all of this magnifies when I am stoned on sugar. I hate that I do it to myself yet I just can't quite stop. I made a comittment many moons ago to be here during this time and I will hold up my agreement. These times are exciting and I know this. I saw in your class,how easy life is...truly. This has just been a temporary set back and I am now moving forward....thank you Ia!
Mariposa
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