Warrior Genes or Peace Genes
Today, as I gardened, I was put in review of a session I had with a man some fifteen years ago. He had a disease that caused his muscles to deteriorate, leaving him unable to work and living on disability. His wife had talked him into having a session with me.
He lay on the massage table, as I did energy work on him, helping him to relax and move into a greater state of awareness. When he was ready, I suggested he see himself going back to his childhood to further explore matters just discussed. Despite his nervousness, he easily traveled back. There he got in touch with his father’s raging, the horrific beatings he had endured, the utter pain, helplessness and humiliation that festered inside him. He finalized his review by giving detail of how nature had been the means for him to survive his childhood. With a sudden shift in energy, a deeply buried thought sprang to life; he had vowed revenge.
As he continued to explore, he headed straight to Viet Nam where he had been a combat soldier. As if possessed, and with great venom, he related how he had soldiered with extreme willingness, extreme self-satisfaction, and an extreme sense of revenge. Every Viet Cong had been his enemy—his father. The child in him had free rein in acting out his aggression, his rage toward his father. He had been a “good” soldier—and he had lived his vow.
Despite his vow, it was clear that, in truth, I was working with an inherently gently man. I asked him, looking again deep inside, how his Viet Nam experience related to his “dis-ease”. He saw that the “dis-ease” was a means to guarantee that he’d never kill again. Yes, the man had to destroy himself to keep himself in check. But did he?
We discussed the situation holistically, how he was a victim of his childhood, how victims often become victimizers in one way or another—it’s often a built-in product of childhood abuse. I talked about judgment versus understanding, of being his own judge and jury, of condemning himself to debilitation, the value of manifesting and maintaining this “dis-ease.” I asked him to examine the situation from his greater awareness, to see if he really did need his “dis-ease”. His sense of remorse—having become a killer like his father—was stronger than his capacity to let his greater light of understanding dissolve his self-condemnation. His choice guaranteed he would not know his own gentleness, beauty and kindness.
I understood that I was put in review of this session because I was being asked to examine—to see—all the wars presently in operation: obvious one, big ones, little ones, covert ones. But mostly the ones that take place within each and everyone one of us. Yes, we all have fought or are fighting a personal war of some sort and magnitude or another.
There in my garden, planting vegetables, I was shown in a much more distinctive way than ever before that all the wars going on in the world at this time, are wars that have been fought over and over and over again…going way back in time; these wars are part of our psyche. Our past is catching up with us, individually and collectively.
As a humanity, we are being forced to examine our aggressive, warring nature. If we can go deep enough into that examination, we will discover the gentleness that lies beneath the aggression—a collective gentleness. Thus, we will be able to live from that (collective) gentleness. This is a new paradigm—gentleness, peace, cooperation, harmony—requiring a quantum shift in awareness. Can it happen? Or is mankind doomed to self-destruct? I’m an eternal optimist.
Categories: Transformation, Understanding, Healing, Greater Self, Collective consciousness, War, Multidimemsional reality
Ia, your words sing true. Since my last session with you I have been sensing this strong internal struggle. I am seeing now that is tied to anger. There is still more to come out from my childhood....rage. I see it coming out passively now, but in order to live in my joy every last bit of struggle has to be brought to the light . And I am committed to living a greater reality...so on with it. Anyone else?
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I saw today that there is programming where I keep myself in fast forward so I don't have to pay attention to what is really going on inside of me (this is triggered by the abuse in childhood). AND so I won't acknowledge the rage. I could not acknowledge the rage when I was a child because that would have meant risking total abandonment. I have to acknowledge it now to be able to slow down and hear god's words. Be the messenger of God.
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My mate had a violent parent and in his case, grew up with the driven desire to master a martial art, and reached the highest potential there. Then used food to numb the effects of his rage not dealt with. Then went up in his head, his intellect - another high potential, - and stays there a lot, where he processes the damage, the rage when he can, in a less painful place. He uses music as a safe stimulant too; the great and the beautiful pieces that access the soul, the heart. He has pets that love him unconditionally, and provide save, actually rather divine affection, daily. Interesting that we respond differently, all of us to wounds. I understand and accept and love him, as I frequently have to work to do same with myself and those around me. I am glad that you are there to guide brave and adventurous truth seekers.
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Falling into a pool of peace as I let go the inner conversation of war fantasies, winning fantasy battles in fantasy coversations inside my head..all stopped when reading this blog. Just peace.
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I have felt for some time now that folks who died angry in one generations war are reborn to fight the next generations war and so on. The more folks who bring peace to their inner war the more peace will exist on this planet. One soul at a time. The more light there is to see the more light will be seen. Are we wiling to fish our wounded child out of the fox hole and breath it through to peaceful forgiveness? If we spend our lives compulsively avoiding or perpetuating the crimes that froze our innocence nothing will change. If we release into the full pain of that loss and breath deeply in that space the illusion will shatter and vanish revealing the bliss soaked smile that it had frozen.
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Ed states "The more folks bring peace to their inner war the more peace will exist on this planet." So well stated. Thank you for your thoughts. We must, we must, we must, find peace within ourselves. Doing so is of major importance during these changing times upon us--more important than can ever be realized by the linear mind.
LaBogge wrote, " Interesting that we respond differently, all of us to wounds." Actually it's down-right amazing the many ways we respond to our wounds, how we support them, deny them, diminish them, feed them, and how they always come back on us some way or another when not addressed with conscious intent. Thank you LoBogge.
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Was at Target tonight and looked in the computer games. All the City Building games were war based. Bulleted words to entice players were. exploit, dominate, destroy. The bulk of the games available were gory war filled games. No Atlantis no evolve your civilization to a higher plain. Between this and things like the highest male circumcision rate we are building anger deeper and deeper into our cultural mind body. which like Ia said makes this time more important than ever!
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I have long hoped and thought I must be nearly finished with my inner wars - with the pain of childhood and divorce. Yet my experience is that my emotional body continues to show me more pain, not unlike the effort to rinse all the soap from a sponge.
I truly understand this man's choice not to explore his wars - the can of worms, so to speak. Yet I find I cannot suppress mine anymore.
Though I hardly know what I am doing, I choose to let my sadness and deep pain surface and then rinse it away with tears. And if I sit with tear-stained journal in hand and usually outside in nature, I get additional insights into my life stories. I also find I am more aware of my intense emotions where as in the past I stoically stayed in my mental body and disconnected from any emotion as best I could. Much to my surprise and delight, I am now willing to show and express some of my feelings with certain others. This new behavior is deeply satisfying to me.
In closing I want to say there is no right or wrong about his choice or mine - our earthly lives simply give us the opportunity to experience the consequences of our choices. I am deeply grateful for the new insights and new experiences that come my way.
This blog has been an extremely helpful road map. Thank you.
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Was at Target tonight and looked in the computer games. All the City Building games were war based. Bulleted words to entice players were. exploit, dominate, destroy. The bulk of the games available were gory war filled games. No Atlantis no evolve your civilization to a higher plain. Between this and things like the highest male circumcision rate we are building anger deeper and deeper into our cultural mind body. which like Ia said makes this time more important than ever!
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There is a world that lives and dies by monetary profits. War, shadow avoidance, and the laws of books were designed to reap profits. In peace there are not profits only love and abundance.
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I most deeply resonate and relate to your post, Ia, as well as the comments made.
I've been sitting with this for a few days now and just came home from a walk through the "cosmos" (purple, pink, and white cosmos flowers). Thinking about the ultimate struggle.
When did it all begin???? Why, if it is in my inherent nature to be of peace and harmony, would I ever dream of putting on the "warrior jeans?"
More questions than answers as my internal peace vs war inside of me seems to escalate.
As LaBogge gave reference, I too find it fascinating at how many different ways there are to finding the truth in us.
Because of what I'm going through, I have so much compassion for those who find themselves in the duality of time. Knowing that, as you have mentioned Ia, in the end all will be turned around again to "where things ought to be."
My eyes fill up with tears of gratitude for the day I met you! Watching your selfless service has shown me what is possible. I am one of those viusal/kinestic learners...got to see it done, try it on, and then do it myself.
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