Salita’s mother believed she was a failure because she had not provided the means for Salita and her siblings to attend college.  For years, Salita has talked about going back to school in order to make something of herself—to be a somebody.  In our present conversation, she realized that she is not just enslaved by her mother’s beliefs, but trapped by her own beliefs about herself which she brought with her into this embodiment—programs running right on the DNA hard drive...I’m a nobody.  A nothing.

In conversation with Salita, I informed her that I had just had a discussion with a man who had a doctorate and a ministerial degree, not to mention a truckload of holistic healing certificates and credentials.  Although a doctor, this man had little confidence and suffered from the same insecurity and anxiety as Salita.   He recently came to realize that he had to take his truckload of “credentials” to the dump.  He had to empty his mind.  If he was ever going to awaken to his true self and live the purpose that was dogging him ever more intensely, he had to de-dogmatize himself. 

Long silence!  Salita’s belief was that the only way to "becoming" was to get those credentials.  The doctor’s only way to "becoming" was to get rid of those credentials.  

Observing Salita’s inner struggle, I reflected back to her information she had just divulged.   Salita works as a translator in a school setting and also privately.  In particular, she has one teenage student, newly arrived in the US who speaks no English.  Salita, more than a translator, is the young girl’s inspiration, a living example of adaptation and success.   Salita has been a support system for the student that she herself never had twenty odd years earlier when she first came to the US as a teenager speaking no English.

I further reflected back to Salita another situation she had divulged.  She had been translating for a psychologist.   In a recent appointment, she found herself including her own “twist” to the therapist’s words, words coming directly from her heart and far beyond any means to halt.  At the same time, Salita had been praying the therapist would not notice her breach of protocol.  When all was said and done, the client walked out of the office her sense of depression greatly relieved for the first time in a year and the therapist feeling quite accomplished. 

I pressed Salita with questions.  The doctor had the degree, but who had the “medicine”?   Would the client have walked away feeling so heartened if you had withheld your heart medicine?  Could you have been so “in tune” if you were systematically educated as was the therapist?  The truth bumped against Salita’s I’m-a-nobody programming.

We all have to let go of something or another—actually everything—to be the light that we are.   For Salita, it wasn’t about being nothing and becoming something or somebody.  She had to give up her belief that she was limited in any way.  She had to own the truth about herself.

As difficult as it has been for Salita to hear, for many years I have called her “Estrella Guia” ( Guide Star) for her light is so bright it humbles me to be in her presence.   People are naturally attracted to her, despite her belief that she is nobody—despite her effort to hide that light. 

 At the end of her exploration, as is usual, I had Salita take a deep breath and lift herself into outer space, outer awareness.  This far away from her linear mind it was impossible for her to deny her own value, her own gifts to the world—the intensity of her own brightness.  She saw that she was whole and being a somebody (or a nobody) was not real.

We all have what we need right now to bring our gifts to the world.  It takes a shift in awareness, however, to own this understanding.  The personal (ego) self does not and will not abide by greater understanding, greater guidance.  This is why it is essential that we acquire and maintain an elevated awareness, a vibration that the ego is powerless to undermine.   The truth about ourselves is not visible to the human eye.  As Salita witnessed from elevated awareness we already have what we need to be who we are…we just have to have the courage to live it.  

This brings me back to the Haitians.  (I wrote about them in my last blog.)  My connection to them grows ever stronger.  Their collective voice is quite a force.  The Haitians know slavery.  They have lived slavery for generations—in fact, many of them over and over as they continually reincarnate into the same unresolved issues, as is Salita’s situation.   They ask that we free ourselves from slavery, the self-imposed kind.  It’s not about becoming a “somebody”.  It’s about true recognition of who we are. 

The Haitian voice informs me that freeing ourselves from slavery is an individual matter, something that we each must do within ourselves…just as Salita is freeing herself from her limiting beliefs— by becoming Estrella Guia.    Change our thought, set ourselves free.   It’s time we all live our freedom song.